A Tale of Two Chicas

Fiddling Farce May 31, 2011

Filed under: Chicago Chica — Yessica @ 12:45 pm
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we cannot survive on isolated happy moments alone. no matter how wonderful they are, how good they used to make you feel, or how comfortable they can so easily become.

I have these moments I can sometimes fall into. Where I carefully dissect information, trying to find connections between thoughts, feelings and actions. Interesting enough- I never quite find a solution. I think I’m okay with that. Meh.


Patio Thinking May 22, 2011

Filed under: Chicago Chica — Yessica @ 7:46 pm
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Its lovely outside. So I sit on my back patio to think. My coworker said today that one person will always love the other person more in a relationship. Which reminded me of a phrase my aunt used to say quite often: “the person you’ll marry will love you more than you love them” she said.

I can’t help but to feel a bit sad about those phrases from time to time. I want to love and be loved equally; I’m always diplomatic at heart.

My coworker also said: “Its not always about marriage, stick to that person who can understand you entirely for who you are. If you can tolerate them at their worst and they can tolerate you at yours, then its worth keeping.” I suppose that’s true.

But again, I can’t help feeling like tolerance in one way or another some how translates to a form of competition. So, if I can tolerate you and accept you for who you are, who’s to say someone else isn’t or can’t? I don’t know- maybe I’m just being to analytical, it happens.

Just another Sunday evening of back patio thinking.


28 Minutes isn’t on Your Way. May 20, 2011

Filed under: Chicago Chica — Yessica @ 1:14 am
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I’ve been waiting for 28 minutes on a few friends to arrive. Its annoying as all hell when people text and say they are “almost there”. Totally pointless if don’t actually show up within a reasonable amount of time. Completely unnecessary. I don’t like waiting for people, its a complete waste of time. I have this really weird thing about time though. I feel that because it does pass quickly, I sure as hell don’t want to waste it.

I don’t want to be late for people either. I’ll definitely work on being more punctual too. Uggh.